Leroy's Heartbreak 41

Leroy was dreaming he was a ghost and Calissa was in a puddle of water with red rose petals in a white wedding dress. Iam not good enough he sobbed and cried. He spent his whole life waiting to be with Calissa. Leroy whacked himself hard in the face with a stick and freakishly talked down to himself like the men who had talked down to him, abusing himself mentally. Leroy walked over to Calissa, knelt down in the puddle and held up her head crying. I just want the best for God... Leroy sobbed bawling his eyes out. He saw a rat on the ground nearby and killed it with his foot. You dirty rotten enemies of God you rats and he stomped on the rat and shreiked. Please be okay God he muttered kissing Calissa's forehead I'll make it better then it ever was. Please he begged like a sick man to Calissa while thinking of God, worried sick entranced by God's inner beauty. Don't go, don't stop searching we could sing songs about little princesses and you be the number one princess. Remember that song Butterfly, Early Summer. I...I brought the papers with me with the lyrics on them he shone them in the sun and sang butterfly. Butterfly flew away where she is loved into blue sunnier days, Gold crisps mornings light her way, she'll fly, fly away, into her princes arms. He sobbed his hands twitched touching his tearstrained face. And sang Early Summer. It was about waiting so long just to be the next to be with someone. Leroy unsteadily moved his hands up Calissa's body and kissed her passsionately you are the best I ever had. I know if God had a face it be miss swan given after long lost loves.