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These days Leroy felt sick minded and violent he wasnt naturally violent. He could feel himself slipping away from the man he used to be he didnt even know what peace was anymore he didnt know what felt like listening to music and just listening to it was like anymore. It had been so long when Leroy saw little kids all he could think about was yanking out his hair and pulling the bits of skin stuck to his very skull. Then snarl at the kids GO AWAY then he'd walk home with tears in his eyes, throwing his hair backing and wipe the tears away with his trembling fingers. Feeling freakish, just really freaked he impersonated a freak by pretending his enemies were there and pretended to humilate himself in front of them and saying stuff like Iam your sex slave and he wack himself and cut himself saying rude things about himself. Then he'd shake and move his trembling hands as if he was having a seizure. Leslie I miss you he whipered weakly his hands reached out as if to hold onto her hands he pretended she was there and clutched he hands and wrapped his arms around her kissing her baby be mine I WILL I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN AGAIN... whatever it takes we will be togheter again I promise... baby I miss you I love you I always will I'll change I promise atleast I hope so I GOTTA CHANGE I GOTTA FOR YOU he said frusteratedly. I love you Leslie

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I look at the mirror and see my face. I ponder the ways of life and death. I go outside and lay in the dust in wonder about my just God. Iam nothing but a human and God you are perfect. Please God I miss my wife Juliet dearly can I see her soon I pray. The light of morning hits my face. and I imagine Juliet is dancing with me. Ive always had faith that you'd come back to me Juliet. You brighten my day Juliet we kissed. We layed in bed as I stroked her hair. She had fair skin and I put on romantic music.

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The decaying sights of animal rot. Leave a stench in my nose I dig a hole to bury the animals. Juliet I think you are my miss swan. I kneel down to the ground and pray to God to see Juliet in Heaven. Without her I seem to wither I pray through gleaming teary eyes.

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The Glory of the Lord is as a victory March. My wife Leslie is as sweet grape juice. God is as a swift sword fighting off evil. Circling army camps of his enemies crushing Satan with his heel. With the choir I sing and play the trumpet marching through the streets to praise him. Let his Holy soul be everlasting.

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Satan he thought you are a crafty little snake trying to crown God with thorns. You would prepare false oaths with your friends and a poison tree to poison them. You'd make a school to teach little kids to be bad. And blot out the light until there is no more peace. Making good people beg from door to door for food. Showering good people with unholy poison water. Being a pestilence to little children. Using your experience in a evil way. Bringing an evil parade in town.

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Heartbreak could kill. Once you loose the one you love it could destroy you and leave you full of pain. Leroy's mind wondered to Leslie his love for her was long lasting. He would never perish for Leslie was his strength. When she died he thought he woiuld loose all his sense. The sun was just about ready to rise. And when it did he would see a bleak sky with sun beams shining down. Leroy walked down to the beach and he imagined Leslie was with him and kissing him, dancing with him. Every eye was on her as there eyes met and they gazed into eachothers. They smiled at eahother his smile made him feel bright as the sun she leaped gracefully in the air and Leroy said youre perfect like a red rose.

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Leroy lay beside a bloody knife it had his blood on it. His hands were cold as blood rushed through his head. Sensibly Leroy read the witches chant from a book. Delighted he kneaded bread dough while chanting about fire. Outside of his house ice began to melt. Winds began to blow. Then he swung the pendulum back and forth. Howling viloent winds pierced the dark night outside. And Leroy found it all quite beautiful. There is no end to the people on earth and suicidal thoughts imprisoned him.

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Leroy sat peacefully on a swing thinking of Calissa. He thought about the troubled world with criminals and poverty. Leroy had attended lectures for gay rights for he always felt he should stand up for what you believe in. They'd argue and the people for gay rights which he was on usually won. Each day since Calissa was gone his fragile heart pushed on through the days. He looked at his reflection. He felt like a crazy mess after Leslie died. I was sick of the assasains attacking me.

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Leroy lay on the grass beside the insane asylum. Breathing in dust he coughed. He got up and put water on his face from a puddle. He began to explore the insane asylum with a flashlight he looked at the wooden forlorn walls with pictures. He went back outside and played a game of hopscotch. Then he drew pictures of him and his long lost love Leslie. He carved a picture of him and Leslie on a tree.
The next day Leroy woke up with a stiff neck and just felt empty. He eyed himself in the mirror he was a young twenty year old. He went outside to walk around soul searching. He felt distant from the world around him. He missed his long lost love Leslie.

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Leroy sowed a patch in his jeans up. Then he went to the laundry mat it was winter and stormy outside. When I got there I saw a child's teddybear on the floor anhd handed it to her and told her about my teddybear. I told the child that when I was a kid I was always eager to buy a teddybear. I began to also talk about ways to get to sleep faster like counting sheep. I told the child how watching the back of my wifes hair was like basking in the sun. I told the child I would never take Leslie for granted. When I got home I donated to charity for my giving mood.

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Leroy punched his pillow he was trapped by the assasains and he had to win a chess game with a chessmaster to talk to Leslie. He had been kept here as a slave. He begged to see his wife. The Chessmaster shrugged at Leroy then hit him. I closed my eyes as I cried I imagined wearing my tuxcedo and kissing Leslie giving her butterflies as we kissed. I continued playing chess until I won then I talked to Leslie breathlessly. I told her the assasains wanted to kill God and me. I told her I had to beat them at there mind games to save God. I told her to cross her fingers for me. I said goodbye for I saw a knife in the chessmasters hand. He had a wild look in his eyes of danger. I began to cry as he put a knife to my throat. I love you Leslie I thought.

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A baby's head lay in Leroy's arms in the dark night its mother cried for her baby Leroy began to run. He ran into an alley and fed the baby a bottle of milk. Behind him in the alleyway a assain punched him. No he thought Ive got to protect the baby and then he passed out. The baby was born as a witch unto God for magic protection. He began to think what it would be like to have a baby with Juliet he thought he couldnt handle it. Babies were too whiny for him. Meanwhile the assainsins were doing a ritual with the baby to turn the baby witch evil. Leroy woke up and ran towards the assains hideout and poured gasoline on the floor and lit a fire. The place blazed with fire and Leroy rescued the baby unharmed. He ran home set the baby witch in a crib and prepared a ritual in the bathroom for the baby. He kissed the baby's forehead and chanted the words then lit the candles, muttered a chant while bathing the baby.