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Heaven bends over backwards to realate to me General John Mackenzie. What do you me said the General. Leroy said I always intend to do the right thing but whenever I go to a womens house for abused women. I go to the gym the very next day and beat up my boxing opponent and come home crying because the faces of men who abuse women haunt me. Nobody understands me except my still fresh love even though she's dead, Leslie. Why do you go to womens houses the General asked quietly. I have a innate sence of justice for women especially because men have abused me badly too. Awkward silence... Leroy the General said I wish your abusers would apoligize to you. Leroy snapped lifes been a burden for me because of those men. This burden of abuse is more then I can bring to my own table, like pulling the sunken Titanic out of water with a rope, more then I can handle. But your able of mending wounds and putting the past in the past said the General. Look up there said Leroy like a druggie and whispered the sky is falling and remembered all the bad things men had said to him, he scolded himself and started wacking himself with a stick and cried.

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The pathway of life, Leroy thought Ive tried my best. One miss step and the assainsains try to get you down. He remembered a time with Calissa they were climbling up a steep slope on a river bend and were holding on to branches for dear life he thought time to fall Iam already about to miss a step. Calissa then spoke up this climb is like a realationship unattended but not ours our love will take us up this hill she said brightly. Leroy thought more about the pathway of life and wanted to redeem abused people with this climb. Abusers could never have sunk so lower these days. Leroy being the teddybear he was would cry at the thought of unkindness in the world. Well dont say I told you so abusers he thought lips curling into a sneer. Leroy wanted to looked back on his life as a real man, a fireman who went into burning buildings to save a baby even if his clothes got burnt. A soldier who fought from midnight to crisp morning hours with wounds that may never heal but was proud of them for he fought for a good cause. You walk around with invisible scars that no one can see while feeling a sence of loss like your trying to find the voice you lost a long time ago. The one that wants to speak up for the things you held so dear.

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Leroy and Calissa would copy flower petals into a book called A hundred flower petals to comprehend how beautiful Calissa is. He'd do the same with leaves for he loved the detail in them. On there anniversary Calissa would be alone on Red Rose Island and Leroy alone on the closest piece of land nearby. With them they had two pieces of red rope and red rose flower petals, they'd tie the pieces of red rope and chant by the bonds of fate let us be reunited with our soulmates and send the rose petals into the wind for there soulmate to find at there doorstep, carried by the wind, sent by there true love. And when they found eachother they'd know that's the one and in eachothers eyes they'd have that special sparkle about them and into them. Then they kissed like it was there first again so full of passion. Leroy bounced a yo-yo and said I'll always come back to you like this yo-yo.

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Leroy choked apparentley General John Mackenzie was pretty good at swearing. General John Mackenzie said the other rotten army has plotted a ambush around our tents. When I write to Leslie, the love of my life and my dream come true she'll be worried sick atleast I can turn it into a different story and make it about her. Lately all my stories are about her, all I think of is her I stare at the river nearby so my creativity will flow nicely to woo her with a romantic story. The General exclaimed you alright there Leroy. Leroy was pale, cold and sweaty he was zoned out to a different time the assasains had framed him and he was running around like a fugitive. He was hiding at a circus in Boston and was disguised as one of the clowns. The police were hot on his tail. After the show was over he went down one of the trapped doors and wrote in his diary ''there trying to get me I can feel it''. They want to hurt me but I...I can't let that happen he muttered lips moving numbly. He wrote Leslie my long lost love your love can pull me through anything and kissed her photo. He police arrived and yelled hands in the air your under arrest you have the right to remain silent. When he got to the police station he told them everything and the police said we'll try to talk to the assasains and bring them into the authourties.

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Can you imagine screaming at the feeling of peace in your body. Leroy could he was apprehensive and paranoid when he felt he let his guard down about the assasains trying to hurt God and his family. Leroy screamed banging his head on his bedroom wall he jitterly cut his hands with a razor. His head was bleeding he hobbled tensely to get kleenex and tape for his wounds. He drank beer alot that day, while he was drunk he knelt to the ground and begged like a dog to its vomit saying my precious God watch me fade away to grey, my favourite color, the color of my trenchcoat. He sing along stupidly to a song he made Oy Beer aint for goats and cowards its for sailors. Yes, yes he stood up crazy eyed and pale he vomited,... the assasains are coming there coming hide. He hid in his closet and wrote dreary poems written in his blood. He then passed out in the closet. He dreamed of perfection in God and how he knew everything or did he and if things were going bad would karma get to him badly in the end and be the fall of him. Leroy also thought about Juliet in his dream they were in lazyboy chairs having a massage watching The Simpsons. You will always be my comforter Juliet and my long lost love.

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Ring... the phone was ringing Leroy was about to talk to the mental distress line. Hello he said weakly Iam worried sick about God like as in physically ill. Iam a paranoid szaphrenic and am paranoid that God abused women because he was not in the right state of mind and did it to abuse himself in a very bad mental way. I would like to tell you some of the problems I think God might be having... They talked Leroy said he wanted the world to get involved meaning 6 billion helping him out. After they were done talking Leroy biked down the street crying he felt like a sensitive sing song bird who was wounded and had its wings broken and just wanted to cry teardrops of blood. I want to hold on too you for dear life my snuggle puppy he could hear his wife whisper sensitively. Then he bowed to her his head was on her belly and said Iam your comforter not a superstar, your snuggle puppy as long as I live with you in my heart which probably means forever knowing me he cried shaking with tears. Through chopped up words because he was crying he said remember that ladybug we found one day on the beach we linked hands as it crawled through both of our hands saying if we ever parted I'd just think I got to breath you can't take that away from me. When you died I thought that lovebug we had would go away. But I was wrong our love was stronger and will stand beside the only thing left of you, your picture forever. He cried and talked more Iam afraid God finds it difficult to move because he's been mentally abused so much and finds it hard to make the right decision because he thinks it could be wrong to move to help others and then leaves himself to stay behind and get hurt massacistacally. I feel hollow right now, so very hollow I need to take a week off just to sleep. Leroy fell against the back of a wall of a store and fell asleep. He dreamed of a perfect phone system where any abused person could go. And people would give so much advice and God would here it and get better and do the right things. He was sweaty and cold and worried.

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Calissa I miss the swing of your hips. Your cinnamon perfume, picking up seashells by the beach so I could make you feel even more beautiful by making necklaces with them and decorating your hair. The things we did for fun made us so happy. We engraved our names into the maple tree in our yard Leroy and Calissa forever. We'd dare eachother to eat jalapeno peppers and other really hot foods as symbolism as in we our the best at having the spiciest realtionship against other couples, we are a hot pair he said kissing her picture. They wanted their realationship to be so hot she'd dress in abercombie and finch like the devil's adovocate and he'd dress up like the devil with a ripped shirt showing his abs. They'd pretend to be Mr and Mrs Smith at a shopping mall in broad daylight stealing with there cunning charms. They didn't actually do that of course but he dreamed of wooing her at the mall by dressing up as Zoro and they'd pretend they never met and he was the one and only womanizer. They'd play cards and everytime she won he'd give her heart shaped sweet tarts but only the sweet ones because girls are sugar and spice and everything nice. The Queen of Hearts beat me again he declared. They had spaghetti and would eat the same spaghetti noodle until they kissed.

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The assasains the assasains!!! Leroy exclaimed he was locked up in a room and had cut the rope he had been tied to. He stood on a chair to get to a window with his mirror and the sun the sent morse code through to his other gangster friends in there hangout outside. The code said sneaky much sneakiness kinds of torture there using on me and mentally bringing me down. SOS HELP!!!. Clever many games of the mind to challenge your wit he muttered then sang cause every girl's crazy about a sharp dressed man in a light voice as if a lightbulb in his brain had went off. Another lightbulb came on in his head alarm bells in his head were ringing. But wait... his friends were really here goodness gracious. He must have been exhausted with fear and dehydration. He hallucinated the assasains faces saying we know how you feel we can control how you think like a sports game you can never win they laughed menacingly and evilly. Leroy screamed and cried at the top of his lungs YOU CAN"T CONTROL THAT. YOU CAN"T CONTROL HOW I THINK AND HOW I RUN THINGS. Leroy woke up Iam Mr Brightside it was just a dream...just a dream. He grabbed his wife Leslie's picture and kissed it I thank God each and every single day since the day you came into my life my long lost love Leslie.

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Leroy remembered having a thornbush. Lately Leroy had been irritated and thought of anyone who tried to talk to him a thorn in his side. Once he was at a farm with thornbushes and there were some goats he put honey on the thornbush and the goats were so hungry they ate through it. It was totally safe. If Leroy was King for a day his crown he decided would be made of thorns and something that looked like spider webbing.That would definateley be his costume. Webs of lies told by nasty selfish men. The nasty selfish men were like spiders luring the flies through its hypnotic web of lies. And when the spider bit the fly to suck its blood, the bite was worse then bleeding to death. Drowning, suffocating while dreaming of the world going out of control and him falling through the deep depths of the ocean. He was near the bottom now falling through cracks of lodestone. While screaming for abused peoples rights, God and his long lost love Juliet he saw angry faces glare at him from the top of the ocean. He hid his hands in his face God he whimpered praying for everyone let yourself use my love tonight.

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My body aches to breath your breath. And your ghost will be the one to hold me down kissing you so hard. You'll wipe away my tears as my eyes close and you begin to cry too on my wet face. Its night time and its dark you hold my neck up. I feel like a suffocating fish lost out of water and onto land and all out of place. These memories of hurt will stay forever like scars. My voice will yearn for you like so many other long lost loves of other people. The night is a good companion for me for its so dark like death. Oh how do I live without you Leslie he muttered your lost words are the only thing keeping me alive like a slave to you. Your siren song has had me hooked even after death. I feel so betrayed how many times Ive been tried to be assasinated and they tried to make me stumble then crawl. Night is now more comfortable then the mornings I face. All I do now is walk around feeling like my life is a lie. Four honest words remain in my heart to stay I love you Juliet.

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Leroy was on a long black train and said its a long piece of time, a long trip alone. It was fall the leaves were fallen and had changed colour. He asked about the weather to the man sitting beside him. The weather isn't supposed to be windy just fall and a pale bleak sky. Awkward silence. The man said nice grey trenchcoat you got there Leroy. Leroy said thanks Iam going to Boston to return it for another one I got it from Boston because grey is my favourite coulor. Hmm said the man why did you come all the way from ON Canada on a slow train just to go to Boston he asked inquivestiley. My wife Leslie died awhile ago I have been taking walks around to ease my troubled mind so to add on to that I decided to go on a slow train to Boston, here's a picture of me and my wife she's my long lost love and grey out of all the colors is the color I connect to the most out of my heartbreak. A waitress came a offered them some cofee. They both said yes Leroy tried to pour his own cofee but it spilled all over his hands and he didn't even care or notice. The waitress and man looked up at him in shock. They waitress said you okay Leroy. Yes he responded just an accident he said shortly.

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Right...Leroy said angrily punching his boxing opponent at the gym. She cheated with another prince she's not my princess anymore. Now she's his long lost love and its all in my head but he's singing about her everyday since they broke up like a long lost love. Leroy punched angrier whenever she needed help she'd go to the other man not... me he thought with clenched teeth. How many times had he turned to this independent woman for help. This sensitive sweet woman who loved him. Oh how the perfect couple must have completed eachother right under my very nose. But what about how she completed me. Leroy said sorry I must leave the gym early today apparently Iam not the one to sweep her off her feet lead her up the stairwell. Some people in the gym turned to watch him walk out of the gym. He then walked to the park and sat on a bench what's wrong with me why am I crying like this why am I so lonely. Then he stopped crying and ran home excitedly he called for a special delivery on Red rose Island 10,000 fake red roses, 78 pices of lumber and a white horse statue to get back the girl he loved. Little did he know he had halloucinated the part about the cheating.

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Computer antalysts to him seemed to have very hard jobs. The computer data files were written cryptically. If the computers needed fixing hands on the wires would be hard to put in the right place atleast for him with all the wires. Glitches,freezing but how do you get your message across to God that the days were way to long he felt for humans going through tough times and he really was worried sick that it would end up hurting God mentally and bring him down and drive him to a level of mental illness of starving humans for a long time. He knew God would probably only start this in the 2007's for it was a very distinctive date in time. Leroy turned some light soothing music for he felt it soothed his nerves. How would God give this message to his abused victims and how could he become there obedience trainer if something went wrong and it got so bad that perfection was way too close to being false. AHHHH Iam going to call the mental distress line again he said hobbling to the phone when he got there his numb fingers curled around the phone and he talked about men intimidating him and there faces haunting his dreams, his wife Juliet and how his heart ached without his long lost love and about him being worried sick about God whom he loved and cared about with a passion.

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Selfish nasty people can leave shatterable dissapointment on one's life like a person swimming under water in slow slow slow motion with the vision blurred. Spinning around, with heartbeats moving the picture. Why do they do this for greed, revenge and love. Yes, love to the point of desperation of saying I'd do anything, give up all I had. Pitiful human wishes that effect others around them in the coldness of their hearts. They won't remember what you did or what you said but they will remember how you made them feel was a saying Leroy had known. Some people were so nasty they'd make you have strong emotional responses when extemely guilty that you yourself would become masacistic against yourself. You'd have trouble trusting again. All they had to do to make you extremely guilty was go crimanally insane. There's a snake in every neighbourhood. Leroy thought I have so much sweetness and would give it all up to his sing song bird, God and praise him with the song Hallelujah. All of me to you God he felt trusting of God because of God's life long experiences. He wanted to hold him, there went without saying he had a connection with God a chemistry for example they were both pink for communisum. He was warm to his beloved God and humbled himself and tipped his hat as a tribute and respect. As long as Leroy lived he tenderly cared about God and others. As in tender I mean the voice of a bleeding rose. As long as you love me I love you God I want you to thrive in a life full of feelings and love.

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Sing alongs in school he thought I was always the type to sing along and dance. When asked a simple question he would sing along to song lyrics to answer the question. Same with assingments, talks with friends. For dance he wanted to dance expressive dance of a long lost love song like that Mr Brightside remix he liked but he was too lazy. People overate singing and dancing he thought because at anytime or place it was there. Wow cats really do think there God he thought because people who fight hard to get what they want with there claws obviously don't know they can accomplish anything they set there mind too. The details in his own face and body were detailed as though he got his wisdom from war. War is a very tough thing to go though can leave you traumatized he said fingers curling. When Leroy was a puppy Leroy dreamed of establishing safety for everyone women and children first. He wondered what it be like to be a cop he looked up to them as a child for he pretended to be one as a child. If only the authourities would hear his pale soul scream inside for he was physically ill inside and sometimes would scream through the silence of too many people not knowing how people had sneakily done things too him and hurt him in too many ways. Leslie would say Tarzan my Tarzan you are an actual man to Leroy. Leroy's detailed face smile at her Leslie my long lost love where would I be without the voice that spoke up for all abused people which has always been yours and your love.

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Leroy dreamed about Leslie he was kissing her with a kiss that felt as though it was his first again so passionate as soon as they kissed they floated to the clouds the blushing cheeks touched eachother and could feel there warmth. And we'll never come down he stroked the hair on her forehead and kissed her forehead. Then he was dreaming of happier times where they'd play teddybear kills to eat Hurley of lost the muffin man. And do the sailor disco dance in there pajamas. They 'd play halloween food monsters crashing the mall going as Mr hamburger and Mrs pizza. He sometimes suggested to pretend to be Willie Nelson and get a sugar glider and act crazy and scream shotgun willie in his underwear. Or pretend God had seen his face and smited him for fun. Or they'd dance as stupid as possible and bobble there heads to headbang as a joke to laugh at. Or they'd pretend she was the blond who turned back time and started all blond jokes. Or pretend to meet demere lost damsels in distress in bars who turned to eachother for help and kissed passionately and catfighted. They'd pretend monkeys ran the government.

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Leroy talked to God in private and told him he was a paranoid sczaphrenic and was scared and paranoid God had abused women with oppression and abuse. Leroy loved God and sang Hallelujah to him. But whenever he sang Hallelujah his heart sunk it reminded him of his wife Leslie, baffled about what to do with himself without her he didnt want to pick himself out of bed anymore he was so baffled. Tell me your problems God and I'll try to kiss them all away whether it be needing someone to talk to about the 6 billon people on earth which he wanted some to kiss all his problems away. Or if he wanted celebrities to do fundraiser days for abused women. Well all girls are princesses he smiled.

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Leroy ran home in the cold windy night sweaty and cold. He was running after his hallucination of Leslie. I couldnt live with what I had done so I took my own life she said. Days way to long, nights cant sleep at all. No one hears me just like white noise in the backround of a bad radio station. Physically ill cant sleep many nights of guilt poor Leroy how could he say that to her. You have the inner beauty of the ugliest man alive, disgrace she spit. If her picture was the last long lost love link keeping long lost loves toghether. Leroy vomited she continued on suppose nothing was there for a link but there was but no one noticed or cared. Leroy muttered crazy eyed and pale what a terrible thing to say to her HOW COULD I. HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO HER. She continued on act one in the begginng Adam and Eve. And now all that's left of this woman is pain. Hang yourself Leroy. Leroy was in three places at once because he was hallucinating he was sailing on the lake after Leslie tryng to throw her one of his love letters in a bottle. While she rowed away while he lost the love of his life. He was in the abandoned building with termites she was in a hangman's noose with an imaginary lake of fire under it saying kill yourself. He tried but ended up falling through the stairs with termites in them. And he was where he actually was now chasing after his long lost love Leslie.

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Sometimes Leroy and Calissa would have all nighters of passionate talks where they would talk about there feelings of the love they felt for eachother. Talks of what there passion for eachother meant to eachother. They'd hold eachother like if they let go a bolt of elecricity would leave them paralysed unable to feel there warm touch again in fear of this there hands locked. Leroy said a place for everything and everything in its place like our hands with our wedding rings, our hands belong in eachothers hands. A place for the desert, a place for the sea, a place for chairs and forks knives and spoons. Leroy woke up out of his dream and screamed I WANT YOU BACK I...I...I WANT YOU BACK. Your hand belongs in my hand and mine in yours. He reached for his and her picture under his pillow. Oh Calissa you were the best I ever had the said rubbing his tearstrained face hands trembling. He settled down when were reunited in heaven there will be a castle for you my tiny dancer and only you my tiny dancer we'll stand by eachother forever as prince and princess I'll sweep you off your feet lead you up the stairwell on a white horse. I'd wait 60 years just to be the next to be with you another 60 if I had to.

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Suddenly enemies of Leroy surrounded Leroy's wife. It played slowly in his head over and over. He saw them talk badly of her and him and threaten her. Leroy
screamed NOOO and cut the rope for the chandelier as it crashed and killed his enemies. Except for Juliet she wasnt even hurt. Want to talk about it he said hoarsely. Juliet ran away from him come back he yelled in hurt. What...want to know how I feel, want to know how I feel about you Juliet passionate with a beating heart full of bleeding love. Its my job to protect God Iam a gangster and he needs someone to take care of him. He was crying everyday my heart beats for you, you know I feel like everytime Ive ever kissed you it feels like our first kiss all butterflies and light headed. If you leave me tonight Ill throw pebbles at your window all night of the month with red roses and detailed love letters written so well and professionally you'd swear I went to college for 8 years just to write them for you. Juliet stopped running away from him and walked slowly to him and they kissed passionately. He held his wifes face let go home. Leroy had been abused by these kinds of men often times before like this and mentally badly. He was very scared of men.

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I kissed a girl and I liked it the taste of her cherry chapstick sang Katy Perry on the Radio. Girls kissing girls gave him scarlett fever it was his guilty pleasure. Just put Eva Longoria and Shakira together wearing scarlett dresses passionately kissing in a bar drunk Shakira saying I broke up with my homely looking husband and winked at Eva. Eva turned Shakira's face gently towards hers and she said darling I tend to get catty and get in a cat fight for all the girls. Then they both stood up and paused jumped in the air and started cat fighting. After it was over. They said sorry and kissed. Eva said my husband spends to much time at work cried and ran out of the bar and into the rain. Shakira ran after her into the rain caught her and kissed her. He stopped daydreaming my... my wife Iam a pathetic old man tears ran down his face. I think I'll go to the beach and make footprints in the sand wherever you will go my sweet wife. A bleak sunset perfect for long lost loves.

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Leroy was talking to his lawyer they'd write innapropriate comments on his interent pages that had been hacked into his computer by the assasains he said shrilly they'd sexually harass him as a child and mentally bring him down. My enemies protect me from them God there here for me and you. They keep trying to trip me for your power your majesty. The power of being dead while you are alive and walking. We'd better move fast General John Mackenzie our wives are waiting at home to leap into our arms. The General responded gruffly family to attend to eh my wife is tender eyed and loving very pleasant woman to be around very sweet voice how about yours. Leroy responded I only have a wife Iam amazed by her she turns my face red everytime I see her, you want to know a secret Iam planning a surprise for her a candlelight diner by the lake red roses scattered all around our picnic table. I actually met her on a place called Red rose Island. At night I gaze at my pillow and picture her there makes me homesick just the thought of being without her for a day till the day I die I cant take my eyes off of her. Leslie...Leslie you must have been the blond who started all blond jokes you silly thing. Well Leroy you moonwalk your way out of the room to get out of this one. Suppose I should I got the dartboard downstairs want to play cupid on Leroy's heart. They kissed romantically mmm.... yes said his wife. Leroy muttered under his breath Leslie... Leslie he opened his eyes and snapped out of the daydream. Dr Jones he thought we have a problem with heartbreak of a major long lost love Leslie...Leslie.

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Mountains can't have enough of them really oh where would we be without cheating the test of long lost love in life still climbing nope because we'd all just die of heartbreak. Ha the nose knows Bartholemuel or Pharoh whoever you are right under your very very big nose will smell a hospital near by with me in it just smelling sick people. What else does the nose know to smell cool scents AHHH he laughed evilly and viciously were doomed. Mouth moving numbly he curled into a ball and whispered to himself I know all the answers but I need the puppets with the strings up. Huh wh...what that voice my conscience angels no just can't be. There were 5 angels in his room. Come back for your own grieving soul come for the oppressed women come for all who have long lost loves your wife and God. Now here me now here's what you are to do go to college for journalism write a really moving good book I'll help you with that one of the angels said in a shaken voice. The other angel continued on then make your very own charity for oppressed women and drive across Canada and the United States advertizing for this. God is very shaken and needs you. Goodbye for now.

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When Leroy felt physically ill and mentally ill his sczaphrenia kicked in. As though his paws would moves numbly with a sence of obsessevness and he'd talk like really slowly and obsessively with his mouth moveing numbly. He felt like he had to feel so physically ill he should go to bed every night waking up all sweaty and cold walking around or should i say hobbling tensely. Leroy cried alot, hands rubbing his wet face. His voice was hoarse like he was on life support and in bad shape. Will I ever learn what I have lost in life my my...WIFE GIRLFRIEND oh how I miss her as he layed in the fetal position on the floor everyday I loved you since I first laid eyes on you even though your gone my mind is captivated each and everyday we'll be in eachothers hearts and her eyes I could get lost in that intense loving warm eyes I drift into happy daydreams when I gaze into her eyes. He gave her pet names like Leslie, Juliet, Calissa because they all reminded him of long lost love names. He stroked his hair and muttered I'd fall down on my knees kiss the ground you walk on baby if I could just hold you again. I'll never let you down, never make you cry, never break your heart. He woke up and screamed at the top of his lungs and called the Crisis line for mental illness and sobbed I had a very weird dream my very long days seem to have gotten longer my mental illness is getting worse and at anytime in the day I tend to scream at the top of my lungs and sob.

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When they had put a robotic brain glands in his head at the age of 10 he knew something wasn't right he could just smell the rat. Something just wasn't right with the world as he knew it or him.
His thoughts were as though a playwright for actors had made them exist. There was too little happening in the world to help people out especially oppressed women. It was like some crazy voodoo game had been created. And he was one of the dolls and he just felt angry... so so so angry he was a underdog and then he became angier and more criminally insane. His father had talked down to him as a child telling him to smile perfectly. No independent women is going to catch me hahaha he laughed freakishly to himself... all alone yes... yes I am better off on my own.
He spit his gum into the garbage barbie girls can't get enough of them really must we all hold on to treasured memories of our long lost loves... why isn't my love life like the gum in the garbage and for everyone. Daddy's little girl eh huh funny what would she think of me nothing she'd just walk out of my life and become a punk living on the streets. She'd take lots of drugs and become the new image britney spears is trying to display. And she'd be a gangster drinking beer every second of the day hands shaking kind of my want for the rest of my life too. I don't actually have a daughter never had never will. Somehow now I am this fragile small egg on the great wall of China just like Humpty Dumpty everybody's fool, the pieces of my life left after my fall will never be put back together again. A compulsive liar even though not I belong in the mouth of a chewing pig.

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Leroy always pretended to be a gangster like Natalie Portman or the guys on grand theft auto he'd keep notes around saying Bark with me if your my dog, Dogs have masters cats think there God and have staff, Give a dog a bone, Puppy dog eyes.,Underdog, Every dog has its day, Top Dog, Wagging tail. Leroy wanted to study aggresiveness in males against males they seemed like the type to trip eachother for girls but never the type to woo girls romantically that much just not into the romantic thing if it wasn't them being wooed like a princess. I... hate them so much they know all my passwords Iam crimanally insane and a professional. I could hide behind they happiest mask but be contentious and physically ill lonely to hold a girl and mentally unhappy and strained. These men are so big muscularly and think they can get away with anything. Words cant describe how much I hate them if I was a girl my eyes would be screaming for girls till the day that I die I cant take my eyes off of any one he would be attracted to. Cross my heart and hope to die I just gotta be with a girl even if its means hell on earth 100 years would only seem like 3 days for the love he felt for the girl he wanted. Though Leroy wasn't a human woman he could just sense the heartbreak he could flatout see because women were so beautiful and funloving. Leroy was so sensitive and emotional he didnt have to be one to know one he could feel emotion well. What would the loss of their long lost loves do to them yes... what would it do that's where Leroy should have been scared... They could have been on the verge of crimanl insanity. Including God.

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Cars driving through the black night. Cinammon perfume is the only thing left of his
memory of the girl he fell in love with long ago. Seeing people's faces is as though there
are multiple people of them, like assassins grouped in four trying to kill him.
You will always be my tiny dance dancing in my hand, my princess whom I love like the
multiple of stars.
Remembering the men who destroyed our family we should have had and the day I layed
you in the ground was the day I lost my mind.
I sometimes feel your warm prescence in my lifeless sleep.
I imagined myself as the peoples lives flashing right before their very eyes starring
of beer and hearbreak.
Slow lives passing by for trillion of years since Adam and Eve like a pendalum
swinging hypnoticaly telling me to bleed mentally, wasting a way thinking of you.
White, the color white yes, yes your wedding dress to me your wre perfect like Juliet
in Romeo and Juliet. I promised to try to be perfect for you my Kryponite.
Wait where am I now, where we first met; Red Rose Island your favorite kind of
flowers. I'd buy them so much for you because I treasured having the chance of being lucky
enough to meet you.
When I am in the dark gulp like a pathetic old man, what's left of me I say and answer
a pathetic old man. I am so...lost without you and begin to cry.
My physiatrist teslls me to smarten up so I fake my wellness but when no ones looking
I turn through sick lullabies and walk to an abandoned building with termites.
I keep five cats with me in my house for company. I think I tend to get crazy without
them. I am so crazy, I begin to think about them talking to me as ghosts and all are named
Juliet...(cries) my princess.