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Song-The devils conscience-

One Two strike
One two strike
the lightning woke the devil up
and suddenly the cold hard front is no more

The devils concience is ridding him of life
the poor poor soul lives a life of regret
leaves come and leaves go
like fear in the night

Tossing and Turning
brought down by his own hand
Drowning in the deep horror of what he has done
While the doves fly into the shimmering moonlight
An angry young man cries

Wolves will whistle to the moon
As flying harpoons aim straight at my heart
In the clutch of evil
his greasy hands grasp the hands of who
the hands of a shrink

Years go by and I have changed
The world knows not that he`s the devil
but he has changed

Over and over
I beat myself up
over and over

Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry

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Song- Devils sins By Me
when iam done in
when i toss and turn in my bed
i hear a calm voice
i fall asleep and iam being rocked gently back and forth
when the earth ends the devils sins wont matter anymore

Feelings come and go
Feelings come and go
but they never left
i close my eyes often
I feel hands pulling me into an endless pit of nightmares
as i replay the past

Void of the once known happiness
I sat and stared at the bleak horizon
i cant move cant feel
i just sit there

When im done in
when i toss and turn in my bed
i hear a calm voice
i fall asleep and im being rocked gently back and forth
when the earth ends the devils sins wont matter anymore

Walking along an old ghost town
i imagine happy people there
and all i can think of is loathing of life
Iam tired and sick and yearn that i was never born
A dirty puddle reflects my tender worn eyes
If only I was never born if only if only

when im done in
when i toss and turn in my bed
i hear a calm voice
i fall asleep and im being rocked gently back and forth
when the earth ends the devils sins wont matter anymore

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Days went by and by Leroy had an anxiety disorder and he had gotten in a habit of feeling uptight and uncomfortable while watching music videos on youtube because of things he was worried about for months and was loosing his thoughts about Leslie that scared him. Last night he rolled around his bed in hatred of his life how could he get in such a twisted turmoil place of rut he missed his wife and the thought of loosing sight of her made his eyes scream for her. And getting into a realationship with another woman was hard especially since he couldnt get rid of the thought of loosing Leslie. A mocking voice came into his head and spoke to him and giving him argrivating facial expressions which said they liked what they liked and wanted Leroy to start a life with someonelse. Leroy began to want to shove sex toys down the mocking voice violently. NOO NOO NOO Leroy cried Iam soo sooo soo tired of it all life and all, will it ever get better Leroy rubbed his hands on his face anxiously he just felt like screaming GOOO AWAY I'LL CHANGE RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW FOR LESLIE. His hands slid down his wet face, he shook and sang in a creepy voice pop goes the weasel while he was singing this he pictured himself at the circus that music playing while a bomb was stuck to him and then when the song ended he blew up with the bomb.

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These days Leroy felt sick minded and violent he wasnt naturally violent. He could feel himself slipping away from the man he used to be he didnt even know what peace was anymore he didnt know what felt like listening to music and just listening to it was like anymore. It had been so long when Leroy saw little kids all he could think about was yanking out his hair and pulling the bits of skin stuck to his very skull. Then snarl at the kids GO AWAY then he'd walk home with tears in his eyes, throwing his hair backing and wipe the tears away with his trembling fingers. Feeling freakish, just really freaked he impersonated a freak by pretending his enemies were there and pretended to humilate himself in front of them and saying stuff like Iam your sex slave and he wack himself and cut himself saying rude things about himself. Then he'd shake and move his trembling hands as if he was having a seizure. Leslie I miss you he whipered weakly his hands reached out as if to hold onto her hands he pretended she was there and clutched he hands and wrapped his arms around her kissing her baby be mine I WILL I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN AGAIN... whatever it takes we will be togheter again I promise... baby I miss you I love you I always will I'll change I promise atleast I hope so I GOTTA CHANGE I GOTTA FOR YOU he said frusteratedly. I love you Leslie

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I look at the mirror and see my face. I ponder the ways of life and death. I go outside and lay in the dust in wonder about my just God. Iam nothing but a human and God you are perfect. Please God I miss my wife Juliet dearly can I see her soon I pray. The light of morning hits my face. and I imagine Juliet is dancing with me. Ive always had faith that you'd come back to me Juliet. You brighten my day Juliet we kissed. We layed in bed as I stroked her hair. She had fair skin and I put on romantic music.

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The decaying sights of animal rot. Leave a stench in my nose I dig a hole to bury the animals. Juliet I think you are my miss swan. I kneel down to the ground and pray to God to see Juliet in Heaven. Without her I seem to wither I pray through gleaming teary eyes.

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The Glory of the Lord is as a victory March. My wife Leslie is as sweet grape juice. God is as a swift sword fighting off evil. Circling army camps of his enemies crushing Satan with his heel. With the choir I sing and play the trumpet marching through the streets to praise him. Let his Holy soul be everlasting.