Leroy's Heartbreak 5

When Leroy felt physically ill and mentally ill his sczaphrenia kicked in. As though his paws would moves numbly with a sence of obsessevness and he'd talk like really slowly and obsessively with his mouth moveing numbly. He felt like he had to feel so physically ill he should go to bed every night waking up all sweaty and cold walking around or should i say hobbling tensely. Leroy cried alot, hands rubbing his wet face. His voice was hoarse like he was on life support and in bad shape. Will I ever learn what I have lost in life my my...WIFE GIRLFRIEND oh how I miss her as he layed in the fetal position on the floor everyday I loved you since I first laid eyes on you even though your gone my mind is captivated each and everyday we'll be in eachothers hearts and her eyes I could get lost in that intense loving warm eyes I drift into happy daydreams when I gaze into her eyes. He gave her pet names like Leslie, Juliet, Calissa because they all reminded him of long lost love names. He stroked his hair and muttered I'd fall down on my knees kiss the ground you walk on baby if I could just hold you again. I'll never let you down, never make you cry, never break your heart. He woke up and screamed at the top of his lungs and called the Crisis line for mental illness and sobbed I had a very weird dream my very long days seem to have gotten longer my mental illness is getting worse and at anytime in the day I tend to scream at the top of my lungs and sob.