Leroy's Heartbreak 23

Ring... the phone was ringing Leroy was about to talk to the mental distress line. Hello he said weakly Iam worried sick about God like as in physically ill. Iam a paranoid szaphrenic and am paranoid that God abused women because he was not in the right state of mind and did it to abuse himself in a very bad mental way. I would like to tell you some of the problems I think God might be having... They talked Leroy said he wanted the world to get involved meaning 6 billion helping him out. After they were done talking Leroy biked down the street crying he felt like a sensitive sing song bird who was wounded and had its wings broken and just wanted to cry teardrops of blood. I want to hold on too you for dear life my snuggle puppy he could hear his wife whisper sensitively. Then he bowed to her his head was on her belly and said Iam your comforter not a superstar, your snuggle puppy as long as I live with you in my heart which probably means forever knowing me he cried shaking with tears. Through chopped up words because he was crying he said remember that ladybug we found one day on the beach we linked hands as it crawled through both of our hands saying if we ever parted I'd just think I got to breath you can't take that away from me. When you died I thought that lovebug we had would go away. But I was wrong our love was stronger and will stand beside the only thing left of you, your picture forever. He cried and talked more Iam afraid God finds it difficult to move because he's been mentally abused so much and finds it hard to make the right decision because he thinks it could be wrong to move to help others and then leaves himself to stay behind and get hurt massacistacally. I feel hollow right now, so very hollow I need to take a week off just to sleep. Leroy fell against the back of a wall of a store and fell asleep. He dreamed of a perfect phone system where any abused person could go. And people would give so much advice and God would here it and get better and do the right things. He was sweaty and cold and worried.